금요일, 11월 13, 2009
Truth to be told, I'm actually feeling rather good these days. Which is kinda weird and novel in a sense, given the perpetual pessimistic streak that i had always thought to be so deeply ingrained in me. Yeah, for those who never did realise it, (not that i show it often) i do NOT view this world as an 'oh-so-wonderful' place i.e. i am cynical. Very. In fact, it's almost second nature to constantly find faults not just with this world, but with the people in it, including me.
That probably alludes to why i am an atheist as well.
It's not that i'm furious with anything or anyone. It's just that there's practically nothing to let me anticipate in this world. Well, besides korean stuff. But now, i am slowly getting the feeling that maybe there is something else after all..
Which should be good i guess.
I should attribute this to my new job. Heh.
Been with Readingtown almost ever since i graduated and it would be unfair to say that i regretted it entirely; there were times i met angels who had really brightened up my life, and of cos they held extra special meaning to me considering that they were all koreans. In addition, even though she's not a student, i really like her alot: seoyoung언니~!
Yeah, the principal's niece. She may be one year older than me, but she's like me in alot of aspects, especially when it comes to being slightly immature. Ha. That's what i like best about her, and also the key reason why we click so well. But oh well, she's already back in busan. Frankly, if she was still around, i probably wouldn't have left readingtown so soon too. (I had to digress: she's from wooyoung's hometown! lol)
So yup, i never did regret joining readingtown. The only thing was that i didn't expect to be there for that long. I joined in november 2007, and including the 4months i was away in korea, i was there for exactly 2 years. It sounds pretty long to me actually.
And unfortunately as time passed, i grew more disgruntled with the current situation. I would be totally frank and say that working hours and pay were factors that contributed a large part to the discontentment. As i mentioned before, having a substantial paycheck would mean that i could proceed with my plans of moving to a condo, getting my puppy, and basically feeding my various obsessions. Pressure from family, relatives and peers was similarly another factor. To avoid comparisons, i often chose to just briefly mention what i was doing and then change the topic.
It was not a pleasant feeling.
The fact that i refuse to settle for a job i have no interest in and that jobs i did have an interest in apparently did not have any in me was equally frustrating.
Of course, i had to give up quite a few things as i stumbled along the path that eventually led to how it is now.
But i like what i am finally seeing now. ^^
Its a long awaited change that i have been waiting for and i look forward eagerly to embracing it as it approaches.
With that, i hereby introduce my latest eye candy (ies).
Coach Signature Satin Book Tote
Coach Madison Leather Sabrina Handbag
Coach Amanda Satin Capacity WristletLOL. They are all so pretty! I might just cave in to temptations and get myself a bag or tote and the wristlet! Hee. I'm a sucker for bags or wallets with gold trimmings. o.O
The only 2 things that are still bothering me are that jay is still nowhere to be seen and dbsk is still on the verge of a breakup. All along i have been more vexed over jay's situation but after what JYP himself has said and that at least the other 6 members have returned on the screen, i feel somewhat more relieved. Yet, now dbsk is facing a stickier predicament. If SM really doesn't take a step back, i have no idea what's going to happen to them..
Can you feel my heartbeat
It's beating for you